Backwards

The fight with depression never ends

You think you’re good then turn another bend.

It’s hard to keep up pretence

When people learn it’s all pretend.

You want to be happy and carefree

To smile, laugh and let life be.

You dream of days the darkness goes;

hoping you’ll live life without woes.

You manage to smile and be human

Fool new faces like a showman.

You think you’ve cracked it, happiness that is

Only to bump to earth quicker than piss.

You hate the world, mostly yourself

You were normal, now you’re back on the shelf.

You hold it together to survive

Close your eyes, imagine you’ll thrive.

The day is over, there is always tomorrow

End things now, time you can’t borrow.

The problems are temporary; they can ease

Don’t turn to a permanent solution, quick as a breeze.

As tempting as it is, trust me; I know

Once it’s done, you wave bye to the show.

You can get through this and out the other side

Repetitive perseverance, your strength cannot hide.